https://justanotherjorjdoe.blogspot.com/
Hello, Let me introduce myself,
I am J.DoeMay 2020
Hi everyone, I am J.Doe and I am an Alcoholic and Drug Addict, I am however in Recovery and have not drunk alcohol since October 2017, however, I am still an addict and I will be until I die, and that is extremely important for me to remember.
So a little about myself and why I decided to start this blog.
As I said I have been sober for 3 years now however I have been in and out of recovery since 2009, previous to this I have seen various counsellors, psychiatrists and even a hypnotist who dealt with substance abuse and mental health issues. I was 31 when I was first diagnosed or as I like to put it "labelled" with an Antisocial and Borderline Personality Disorder I also suffer GAD, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, PTSD Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and the one I think is strangest of all but also the one that describes how I feel the most is the Dissociation Disorder.
Should you wish to look up any of these conditions for a more detailed and professional explanation here is a link to Mind's website (Mind is a Mental Health Charity) here you will find much more information regarding these conditions in and others in more detail.
https://www.mind.org.uk/
Types of Personality Disorders
What is Dissociation?
What is Anxiety?
I
am a 42 year old single Mum of one amazing 10 year old child. There are a variety of reasons why
I decided to start his blog, firstly I have read numerous self-help books and
more recently books written by Mums who are/were alcoholics who, previous to
publishing Their books they had started a blog, I am talking about people like Clare
Pooley, The Drinking Diaries or The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober, these
books woke up the writer in me and after reading theirs and many others like
their blogs and books I could hear a very quiet voice buried deep, deep down
inside me saying, "you love English, you used to love writing stories and
poems and I also recall you always dreamed of writing a book one day" I
guess my motivation and ambition of becoming an award-winning Author had got lost
beneath the gallons of Vodka and Wine, I had poured down my gullet not to mention whatever substances I could get my hands on, however once I
had removed the problem, I finally decided it was time to get into the solution
and so with my mind being as clear as it will ever be, I decided now was the
right time, if not for anyone but for me!
Recovery & quotations
Self Help Books, AA, NA, CA, The Big Book, The 12 Steps,
meditation, just don't pick up that first one, It’s the 1st one that gets you
drunk, Poor me, Poor me, Pour me a drink! Secrets keep you sick. One day at a
time, You only need to change one thing to get clean and sober..Everything.
I'm sure all the above resonates with those of you who are either in recovery or have been in and
out of recovery. Lots of the sayings can be heard in the rooms of AA, however, any recovery group that uses the 12 step method will have these or similar sayings and although all of them are 100% accurate. Personally, it’s my belief the 12 step method works, however just not for me, I'd
like my recovery to not involve continuously hearing, listening and talking
about alcohol or drugs. In the beginning I had to try extremely hard to get the
thought of drinking out of my mind, then I'd go to an AA meeting and
although I found that most folk there were wonderful people and that the 12
step method and what’s written in the Big Book of AA is accurate and could have been written for about me and for me, I
would talk and think more about alcohol in that one hour alone than I would have
done within a whole week before. For me, I think the worst part of being in Recovery, and this is just my opinion, if I saw someone in the high street and
they saw me they say "hello J" (that's if they were actually still speaking to me for
this scenario we will pretend that they were one of the few who I hadn't upset,
hurt or verbally abused,, YET!) generally, most people would say
"Hello, how "Hi J How are you? hasn’t the weather been lovely?" whereas, when
I was in recovery (and by that i mean as in attending meetings for either AA, NA, CA etc) the first thing anyone would say to me would be "hello J, how are you getting on? Are you still not drinking? how
longs that been now? well done, it must be really hard? I really admire you, I couldn’t
even get through dry January! and with that, I would think "Why can't someone just talk to me about the weather????"
So I am writing this blog for not only myself but for anyone who is in Recovery, is clean and sober but would like to have time out from “thinking” and perhaps variety in your conversations, as long as you never forget that recovery has to come before anything else, that may sound selfish and when people say things like “Isn’t it a little selfish to put recovery before your family or kids?” The answer to this is without a doubt “absolutely not, without recovery i won’t have my kids they will be taken away from me, addiction takes everything if I don’t put it first I won’t have a family or a life to worry about”. That doesn’t mean there won't be times when you want to switch off and sometimes it’s nice to give your mind a break from the constant thought of ‘not drinking’ or discussing what we assume normal people discuss with each other, So for those who want all the above “hello, isn't the weather nice today?...
